anxiety and gratitude

It's been a decade, and then some years, since I have been able to sit in solitude, enjoying a cup of coffee, the quiet, sewing - in the morning! Such luxury. Caused by being in between jobs. So also a luxury spiced with a bit of anxiety about the future. Striving to embrace the shift, and keeping my mind open to what the future might have in store for me. Contemplating these words:

Just let go.
Let go of how you thought your life should be, and embrace the life that is trying to work its way into your consciousness.

 - Caroline Myss

Thinking about gratitude. About how much it soothes and inspires to realize a few of the numerous things, we have to be grateful for. To linger just a minute by them, and let gratefulness wash away what's troubling us. At least for some time ...

 

I'm grateful, that our new 'Hyldemor' is healthy and growing, so she can work her magic and protect our home.

 

 I'm grateful, that Nanna is healthy and growing too, and giving us many a good laugh.

I'm grateful, that the apricot tree, which I planted three years ago, is in bloom for the first time. Maybe it will even grow fruits.

I'm grateful for the beautiful sweet almond tree I was gifted by a friend.

I'm grateful, that this queen and her family survived the winter, and now is joyfully humming and buzzing all over the garden.

I'm grateful, that spring is here, and for the light, energy and flowers it brings.

I'm grateful for having eyes that can see, and for being able to find so much joy in what they see. I'm grateful when I see a flower unfold, knowing that I can unfold too.

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'That nothing is static or fixed, that all is fleeting and impermanent, is the first mark of existence. It is the ordinary state of affairs. Everything is in process. Everything—every tree, every blade of grass, all the animals, insects, human beings, buildings, the animate and the inanimate—is always changing, moment to moment'.

Pema Chodron